Bittersweet

I know this is kind of late but better late than never.  I got back from Ecuador about 2 and a half weeks ago.  It has been very bittersweet.  It was nice to see my brother and his family and to eat American food for a few days.  But after about a day, I realized that my heart was very much still in Ecuador and it remains there two weeks later.  It was so hard to say goodbye to my kids.  Now, because I am so far away, I have to trust that the volunteers that are there now and will come in the future, some of whom I don't even know, will take good care of the kids that I love so much.  Even though I know I was supposed to come home, all I want to do is go back.  I feel like I belong there with my kids even though I have things I need to do here.  I hope I never forget the experience I have had there and the feeling I got every time I saw my kids smile.  These kids have impacted my life in ways I can't even describe and I hope that one day, I will be able to go back and see them again.  And even if they don't remember me, I hope that I was able to help them feel the love that I had for them and the love that Heavenly Father has for them.